Here and now.

As I was nearing the end of my internship here at IHOP I was faced with many decisions. My flesh was telling me, " you're done, go back to Texas and continue where you left off," however my heart was telling me to stay and experience whatever it is that the Lord still has for me here. One of my big decisions was whether or not to accept the staff position that was offered to me. Again it was battle between my flesh and my heart. Thankfully I was able to discern that it was indeed only my flesh that was ready to call it quits and head home. I was recently in Dallas and Colorado for three weeks and as great as it was being back home with family and friends, I knew in my heart it was not time for me to be there for good.
I am now taking on the role as an "Internship Core Leader." I will be working with the people that staffed my internship (Intro. to IHOP). They are starting something new this time around, and adding a "teen track" within the internship. Because whole families go through this in particular internship, there are usually a few teens, but being summer time there are quite a few this time. Myself and one other will be leading the group of teens. I will be attending classes with them, leading break out sessions, leading a weekly small group, doing one on ones throughout the week, as well as committing to at least 12 hours a week in the prayer room. My heart has grown tremendously toward youth in the past few months, as I have been working with the summer camps and student ministries. For a long time I just thought each generation was getting worse and worse and there was no hope for the youth of our nation. But now I am seeing a generation of radical children and teens that are deciding to give themselves wholly to a lifestyle of prayer and intercession in the midst of the darkness that is all around them in there schools and daily activities. I remember the impact that older men of God had on my life when I was growing up in my teen years, and I believe the Lord has placed me here and gifted me to be able to really pour into these kids, as well as be a mentor and a friend.
From day one of my journey to IHOP I have prayed for the Lords direction and guidance. I feel very strongly that I have been on the right path toward walking out the plan He has for my life. This next season with last another three months, in which I will then re-evaluate and ask the Lord, "what's next?" One thing I have learned about this particular season of life is that I can not plan for the future.